It's been a while since I've posted. I'd like to say it's because I've been insanely busy, but truthfully I've been quite lazy. I spent some time in Dubai for the first 10 days of Ramadan, and then hopped over to Jersey for the rest of the month.
I'm here now, and feel this has been an incredibly important time for me -- just as reflective and eye opening as Bali. I've embraced a new comfort in my spiritual journey with religion, something I've struggled with my whole life. My faith has always remained strong, but my approach has always been a bit of all or nothing, teetering between guilt for lack of devotion...or full devotion. Similar to many other goals I have in life, diet, physical health, social media, whatever... I'm now adapting an 80/20 (sometimes 70/30...60/40...) rule. If I can live my best life and be the best version of myself MOST of the time...it's surely better than none. That way, I'm not setting lofty expectations for myself that I'll never meet 100% of the time.
I've also found myself much less anxious than I typically used to be. This could be the fact that I now have 24 hours a day devoted solely to myself without the distraction of work and crazy travel, but I'm a lot more free flowing about how things unfold. I've surrendered to the will of the world, to God. As I type this I realize how ridiculous it sounds and how unlike me it is to feel this way. I don't feel like a transformed human being. But something is different. And I like it.